waiting

It took me over a week, but I FINALLY made the call to my doctor's office on Friday to see what needs to be done to get things rolling on my surgery.
I've been procrastinating because even though I know it has to be done for me to live, I'm fucking (sorry) terrified. I've never had surgery where they have had to cut me open and now, not only am I being cut open but it's one of the most major surgeries someone can go through that doesn't involve the brain or heart.
I'm just waiting for them to call me back to let me know if I have to do any sort of counseling or prep work beforehand.
I don't really like posting to Facebook all of my personal bullshit, however, I will continue to post my blog as much as I can to keep everyone up to date.
Thank you all for you continued support, love, thoughts, best wishes and prayers. Every little bit helps.