Ok, so I had outpatient surgery last Thursday. My oncologist went in to get a better look and do some biopsies. The good news is, my bladder came back fine. It's still painful but he is chalking it up to scar tissue from the radiation.
Now for the bad news. My nurse told me that microscopically, my cancer is still there. I go see the doctor on Monday (15th) to discuss what's next. For sure, he will be doing another PET scan to see where we stand.
I just don't understand. The past 2 1/2 years have been so hard. I've lost both of my parents and dealt with this cancer bullshit. I know I've become a stronger person because of it, but damnit how much stronger am I supposed to get? I've lost friends in this process but I've also gained some. I've been on the other side, I know people don't know how to "handle" the situation and feel like they have to tiptoe. But I am still me. I just happen to have cancer. I go into this with the attitude that I'm going to kick the cancer's ass so that one day, I can be considered a survivor instead of a patient. I know I'm rambling but obviously, today is not a great day.
Thanks for "listening" FUCK CANCER
Love to you all.
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